Americas heart attack, My Comspiracy Theory (please rate)
Author: Lucas giddens

Chapter 24
Pleasure Of flesh

PLEASURE OF FLESH                                                                                                                 

    The American has given in to their wants and desires.  Is that what is causing all destruction and mayhem?  When I was growing up I had rules to fallow in my house.  Just like the laws in state and country.  I have to admit, some of the laws I do not like but I did understand them, even at a young age.  

    I remember the change of rules and what I could get away with when I changed households.   I talked about it at the beginning of my story.  You remember the change in fathers.  Well my natural father was more lenient on certain issues.  Not my step father there was no give with him what so ever.  I had to separate the good from the bad.  We all have the dark side so to speak. 

     I was hard headed and it took well over thirty years for it to sink in, or better yet knocked in.  I was trying to live that bad boy slash tough guy life.  It was the life style that the majority of people liked.  I had an act for being bad.  It came natural so to speak.  Besides the girls liked it, or the girls that I chose to be around.  If you look around, you will see what I am getting at.     

     I was under the assumption that a man controlled his emotions.  It appears that the emotions are in control of most of the American men now.  Take for instance the, hormones.  I for one, let them get the best of me.  I have to remind myself that I am the one in control.  I end up giving into my own want or desire.  I have did stupid immature things like post sex adds on the internet.  I feel bad after I pulled that stupid little immature scenarios then I realize how week minded I was to give in to my temptations.  Hard to believe that my own emotions are what causes my own destruction.

    Everybody I hung around it was popular to be a lady’s man.  You are looked at by the sexiest best looking lady’s.  Look at you television or every advertisement nearly in America.  They use sex to make money.  And you wonder why we have so many sexually committed crimes and sexually transmitted deceases spreading around our country worse than wild fire.  

     I was not raised around people from church never even thought about God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost.  I thought church was filled with older people or the ones who think they are so much better than you and goody, goody, two shoes.  You know they are all hypocrites.  They know it and admit it.  Some though do think they don’t do any wrong.  That is what scares more people away from church.

     If I was raised in church I may not be in this predicament I’m in.   Do to way I was raised.  I do not believe in doing anything half way.  Give it your best shot at whatever the task is.  No matter what the obstacles or how big they are.   Don’t do it just enough to get by.  Even the bible say’s to do the same in the book of Revelation chapter three verses sixteen God said, “So then, because you are just luke warm, neither cold nor hot I will vomit you out of my mouth.”

    We American’s are week minded or little of faith.  We do not have fear in our own justice system and other country’s look at us with pity.   Who sets a good example?  We are not putting to practice the Christian faith like in the past.  Is that the reason of our disturbance?

    They say that addiction is a disease.  Whether than admitting that it is our own self infliction.  To me it is just the simple fact of being a coward.  It might sting a little, but admit that is our problem.  Be honest at least say I just like it too much to deny the simple pleasures in life.  We are too busy pointing the finger at something or somebody else.  Let me give you an example.  The reason I got this sexual transmitted disease is because they did not tell me they were infected with aids.  Will that affect the outcome any?   Or did they make you inhale or sniff that drug.

    I was letting other people that I hung around with influence me.  Even after the first head injury I had.  I was so foolish I got on drugs and hung around that crowd again.  I did notice people paid more attention to me.  I even got lucky with the lady’s.  I liked it getting high all the time and having luck with the lady’s again

     It was not only the drugs I was also addicted to the lifestyle.  I was very addicted to cocaine. I went to a place in San Angelo, Texas were my mother lived.  I did not know anybody down there.  I think that’s why it was so easy to get away from the addiction.  Anyways let me get back to my story.  I did miss my so called friends and my lady’s.  Who were pretty much whores if you think about it.  Trying not to be mean but look at the facts.  They only liked me if I had drugs or was getting it.

    The sexual desire for the woman along with the companionship still bothers me.  I get so frustrated and angry with myself over not being able to get a date.  I don’t want to but can understand in a way they would choose to be with a different man.  I’m pretty picky as well.  I’m sure they think I’m mental or some drunk trying to get down their pants.   

    I have put out adds to get a date on the computer.  Sure I got phone numbers.  As soon as they hear my voice they automatically make up some reason they can’t make it or something.  I have even met and bought them dinner and explained myself to them but they still find a reason.  I still try.  One day I will get lucky.  Get your mind out of the gutter.

    You know how you see all of these women in the mid-evil movies that are just so sexy.  In reality they were not as idolized as the woman is today.  They did not have the cosmetics that they do now.  This will make allot of you gag.  Some of the lady’s had harrier arm pits and legs than their husband.  The woman today that lives in America has it made in the shade.

    Even though I may never get a date again I will not turn from God, do drugs, and most definitely turn into a fudge packer aka homosexual.  Sex has America addicted.  It is getting worse as I type.  I don’t think you could make it through a day without seeing something that’s represents sex.   The urge for sex and all the other forms of the pleasure of the flesh are the toughest test for me alone of denying my own wants.  I will continue to try to deny my own wants, strive for the wants of Christ, and fallow his will.

    I will spell it out for you.  It was said in the book of Matthew chapter sixteen verses twenty four, “IF ANYONE DESIRE TO COME AFTER ME, LET HIM DENY HIMSELF, AND TAKE UP HIS CROSS, AND FOLLOW ME.”  I do believe if there was a denomination of the Christian faith that was above all others he would have said so.  I will break it down for you.   The way it reads to me is put very simple.  Another words it is said to me like this.  I don’t care about your past or present.  Whoever wants to come after me?  Well just bring it.  Pick up all your burdens and follow my will by denying your own wants and desires.   

    In the bible it is written, “Do not love the world or the things in the world.  If anyone loves the world, the love of the father is not in him.  For all that is in the world-the lust of flesh, lust of the eyes, and pride of life-is not of the father but is of the world.  And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever.”  That is in first John chapter two verses fifteen, sixteen, and seventeen.

    Said by his apostle Paul in Romans chapter twelve verses two, “And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is good and acceptable and perfect will of God.”  So, I ask you this, are we starting to rely on the worldly things more than God?  It is said in many other ways in the bible, but those are straight to the point in my mind.

    Some Americans are always in a bad mood.  They think they have it so hard.  People that live in America have an easy life, even them like me.  We even provide a roof over the head and food in your stomach for the homeless.  Bums have it made pretty much here.

    We use to get out and help one another.  The children now are getting raised and taught how to make money in ways that are illegal and con their way through life just like a thief.    We are letting bad turn to good.  Look at our history.  Our ancestors are rolling over in their graves disgusted with us.  Yes, any ethnicity.  God left us in charge of his affairs giving us freedom to choose our own fate.  We killed him when he gave us everything.  We only proved him right.  America will fall, but the question is.  Are we going to fight on his side?  Or will we remain weak and decadent?  Easy choice no matter what your belief is.  Your denomination is not a concern.  It is a simple choice. 

     A person’s perspective of Christianity is shown best through their actions.  People are just not seeing the good works of our God anymore because we are not putting the faith to practice.  Instead they are seeing the American as being a greedy, selfish, self centered, sexual immoral, con artist.  Do we stop after we say the words, “One nation under God indivisible with liberty and justice for all.”

    We are letting the reason for committing crime dictate right and wrong.  Our liberal heart has taken over in our own actions.  We point the finger at others to hide our faults.  We blame the president or whoever leads us for the destruction that is taking place in our home of the brave.  Why don’t we own up to the fact that it is our own fault?  We the American people are causing the destruction in the land of the free. 

   The American people are giving in to their wants.  I was taught to fight off my urges.  Look at us now acting like a bunch of little kids that will cry if we don’t get what we want.  We are just like a dog begging for scraps off the table.  Some even look up to and admire movie stars that pretend to be a great powerful man.  But in actual reality they are nothing but spoiled little brats that can’t handle the reality.  Sure they have money and the fame and can afford all the pleasures of flesh. 

    I use to admire them.  I thank God that I never had the money or fame.  Why?  I would end up in hell for one.  The other is I would have probably got a sexual transmitted disease along with being stuck up or dead from a drug over dose.  Would have no courtesy or respect for others or be to self centered to care.  Come to think about it, you would have to have a strong mental attitude to ignore all the different temptations that presents itself.  I would be like a kid in a candy store if I ever had either one fame or fortune.  

    If you have ever read the bible if you think about it Christ never really consulted with the rich people.  In my belief he knew that most would not take heed to what he said.  He surrounded himself with common folk like me.   Hard to believe, I know.  He even ate and drank with us sinners.  It is written in Dr. Luke’s book chapter five verses thirty, thirty one, and thirty two.  God said, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick.  I not come to call on the righteous, but sinners, to repentance.”

    Some of the celebrities don’t know what it’s like to have to serve.  I remember very well that sensational feeling from the drugs I have taken.  For the short time that I was high I felt like I fit in with the rest of the people around me.   People treated me very well.  It felt good to me just being heard and treated like the popular guy again.  The bad thing about it was that I knew it was just because I had control of the dope.  To keep that sensational feeling that I wanted and enjoyed so much I had to remain high with all my so called friends.

    Satan knows the human heart very well.  It is so easy to predict.  He knew that I wanted to just be able to fit in.  After my first head injury nobody would even pay attention to me.  I had to get into drugs just to be recognized.  Yea I know it was pretty pathetic I had to buy drugs and get people high for friendship once more.  I used the excuse I’m only human so many times.

    The drugs are so much easier for me to get off of than my lifestyle I wanted to live.  You know to be the center of attention, being popular with the lady’s, you know the fame-popularity-glory.  When I had the dope I had that.  But the reality catches you.  I do not want to have to buy my friends like I was doing.  I went back to Jesus Christ and got with his followers and became friends a few of them that you did not have to require anything for.

    In every place you look you will find those who think they are so much better than you.  You would think that church would be full of humble people.  The people that I go to church with know me and the reason that I am what you call a handicap so that I don’t go through more tribulations but, to be honest I have went to other churches and have received more judgment there than at a bar.  I could be in a foul mood all the time pointing the finger at others saying discrimination.  But I care not to mad and ruin my day.  So I pity them and choose to be happy.  The bottom line is why live in the bitter past when dwelling  at history knowing that it will only depress you?


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