Americas heart attack, My Comspiracy Theory (please rate)
Author: Lucas giddens

Chapter 5
The truth


    Some say they want the truth but when they get it they can’t handle it.  My step Father Glenn Pointer was hard on me.  He showed me the walk of how he thought was the right way, but I loved to goof around.  It seemed to me that he had no humor.  At the time he looked as a mean ole man, but he only raised me on how he was. 

    I lost respect for him when he punched me three times in a barn when we lived in Gardendale, Texas.  I probably pushed him to it.  I still feel the rage and anger that I had towards him for doing that.  I never thought that he would have done that.  That remains in my mind still today.  We all make mistake so I have to put that in the past.

    Now my natural father Randy Giddens has a great humor and showed me how to turn away from the worldly ways.  Being a great example and made a complete u-turn in his ways.  I recognize that and admire what he did but before my accident he was the type of father that was lineate on you and would allow a whole lot more.  I would have never been allowed to do half of what I did.  When I moved in with him it was like a kid in a candy store.  I love him and my Step mother Becky Giddens but what I do remember living in their household.  I guess you could say it was a cake walk. 

    I guess it all started with them listening and believing little white lies but when I was under my stepfather’s roof.  He would not listen to my reason if I was in the wrong.  Yes was yes and no was no and wrong was wrong with no in between.  I felt like I was walking on egg shells all the time. 

    When he said yes or no that was what he meant.  If I did do something that he said no to me one time.  I knew he would bust my butt so you learn quick, well most.  I was a little hard headed and I got punished for it but I knew that I deserved it and my reason did not matter.  I was in the wrong no matter how you look at it but I do know that this once most powerful and rich nation has become weak and decadent.  

    For instance, I always go to a convenient store down the road from where I live in Louisiana.  It is a daily thing pretty much.  I guess it is because I don’t get judged by others because the clerks know me and the story behind the way I walk and talk.  One of the clerks will lie so much she or he does not remember all the lies that the person has said to me.  I may walk and talk like im dumb but I have a pretty good memory.  That clerk has her or his fiancé stay up at the store with them pretty much the whole time.

    Well I got tired off all the lies and deceit I finally brought it out and confronted them with it.  Needless to say I was the one who got banded from the store when they are there.   Well it was my choice to stay away from the store when they are there.  The best way to avoid confrontation is to stay away from it.  I was the one who got punished basically.  When I was growing up it was truth, justice, and the American way.  You get punished for doing the right thing now.  I guess that saying should be changed to greedy, deception, is the American way now because that so called friend and the fiancé have turned against me now. 

    Now day’s people take offence to the truth.  They all want the truth until it has no benefit for them.  Then they give you a reason to try and justify that little white lie.  A lie is a lie there is no way to justify it.  It is hard to grasp that the truth kills.  Just study the life God (Jesus Christ).  The truth was what killed him.  They say that the truth sets you free.  In today’s society many try to justify the lie but in the long run it will destroy you.

    We all want to make a difference in our life and furthermore be glorified.  A lie will destroy you in the long run.  Sure you may get pat on the back and receive the reckoning for that moment but nobody can run or hide from the truth no matter what your faith is.  Here in America we have the right to believe what we want, for now.  Once they find out that you have deceived them with all the false accusations that came from your mouth.  You will not be heard truly even if your life depends on it.

    I will tale you know so mark my words.  The statements that you make along with your actions you take no matter your faith will define the man or woman you are.  My Step father always told me growing up to watch, listen, and learn.  Another one he told me was a man is not a man without his word.  He did do what he said he would.  He is a good example of a man.  My natural father Randy Giddens has become a great man as well and has become an ideal role model in my life.

    I see how my brother Chris Giddens and step mother Becky Giddens along with my natural father Randy Giddens are raising my niece Randi Giddens.  I don’t say anything on what I see because it is not my place and my parents along with my brother will tell me to butt out.

    My niece knows that they will give in if they say no because she is very persistent and will cry and pout.  It is hard on your heart to see her cry.  I want to say let her cry she will get over it but they end up letting her have her way about something’s.   But let your no mean no and that is the end of it.  You are suppose too submit to your parents but the way t looks all around the United States is that the children are in control.  So now, America is going to be run by a bunch of little spoiled cry babies that are never going to be content with the real issues in life like the truth.  So now, I can see why as time goes on that our powerful nation gets weaker and weaker and will fall due to our pathetic cry baby liberal ways.  America has become decadent and weak.  Now some liberal ways are good. 

    I am not better than anybody because I got spoiled as well.  But I am fully aware that my own ways got me in the predicament im in today.  I can get sympathy being the way I am.  I had to go back to my child hood days and use the discipline that was instilled in me by my stepfather.  You have to deny yourself the easy liberal ways that we have in the land of the free.  I am guilty of given in to my own ways, but every time I do the consequence do to my own action results into a negative out come.  So, im here to tell you the truth is hard to bear at times and you can try to hide, cry, and run from it but it will catch up to you.  No matter what you try you will never defeat the truth.

    My natural father Randy Giddens not only told me what we must do to change our dramatic life into a peaceful and more meaningful life, he also showed me.  He severed all ties to his old worldly ways and started following God.  Who I believe is Jesus Chris.  We live in America so we are allowed to express, fallow, and act in our faith.

    America was a godly nation.  No matter what your fait is you might even worship the porcelain god or you may be an atheist.  Just look at the American currency.   I believe it is written on it somewhere in god we trust.   Instead we are trusting in a man’s ideology to fix the mess we are in.

    Man has changed the laws around for his benefit.  You back in the biblical days the Pharisees and Sadducees were basically the same thing as politicians.  They were self righteous and changed things to their own benefit.  I don’t know if they had to lie to people to get elected like here in America.  You know how the politicians will say things that are not true.  Just like saying I will bring the red and blue states together. 

    Saul aka Paul was a Pharisee at one time.  Pharisees and Sadducees made the laws back then.  Yes they were religious people.  You can say that is nothing like a politician.  If you think about it religion was how everything was based back then.  I do know you can only trust God, not man or even yourself.  We killed God Jesus Christ for giving us the truth. 

     It is hard to except the truth on the reality of life.  For instance I will use my own self as an example on one issue.  Growing up under my step father’s roof was hard but I chose to learn the good things from what I saw from him.  Most say it was too hard he should have more of a heart.  But no matter on what happened in my youth it took place and I do know that you cannot change the past. I told you that being punched three times by him will stay with me forever.  If I let the past affect me it will only depress me in the future.

    I do wonder if I would have had an easier upbringing.  Would it have affected the determination and work ethic that I had to use on my rehabilitation that I learned from my step father?  Everybody says that everything we go through in life has a reason.  They including some preachers say that God will not give you more than you can handle.  This may burst your bubble but that is mans saying.  The words were tampered with so that man would benefit from it.  You know like I was talking about earlier Sadducees, Pharisees, and slash politicians.   The way it was written is in the book of first Corinthians verses thirteen, “No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.”

    It is kina funny how man has twisted the word of God for his own benefit.  Sorry, got off the subject.  Im bad about that, my topic that I was trying to get at was about the haunting past.  One of the most controversial subjects that haunt America is about our race.  Some not all African American people are holding different races accountable for what took place in the past.  I said some not all.   You decide what category to fallow.  To the some don’t you think it is time to let that guilt trip go?  Stick this in your pipe and smoke it.  All races have died for our freedom that we have not just one particular race or religion.  

    Speaking of religion, Christianity is still is the main faith here in the United States for the time being.  Other religions or people that have no deity, you know atheism.  They are offended by the religion that has been around the United States since it has become a nation of its own.  Since 1776 July 4th we have been free from England for about 235 years. 

    I don’t know about you but I was raised with the assumption that you are to respect the rules and beliefs of the house you enter.   If you disagree with their rules and regulations and if you don’t like them, then just leave.  The bible even talks about that.

    If you ever entered my house and did not want to fallow my rules and regulations and were offended by my personal belief and started acting up and disrespected me.  I would simply ask you to leave and if you did not you would have to deal with the consequences of your actions.  Whatever it might be and that would depend on you.  My house will remain peaceful and I will not change to fit others liking.  

    The golden rule is will always exist in my mind.  I put it to practice and found out that it is easier to hang around or fellowship with people that put it to practice as well.  You know, do unto others as you would have them do to you.  It seems that the people who stand behind that show great dill of respect no matter what the race, ethnicity, or religion is.

    Don’t get me wrong.  I keep my mind open and will listen to a different view.  At the same time I would expect you to listen to mine as well.  But I have chosen to deny my own views on life and take heed to what my personal Lord and savior Jesus Christ says.  The reason I do that is to avoid listening to my own view on things that lead to my own destruction.  It seems that every time I listen to my own wants and desires I get into trouble but if you decide to try and find happiness elsewhere then I wish you the best.  Happy hunting because I have given up on my feeble ways and have decided to fallow him.


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